forfeit
forfeiture
giving and taking
talking and faking

being ignored
feeling scorned

forlorn
despondent

desperate

what do i do now?

i have nothing
you will never love me now

now you understand my power
and that i'm capable of using it

you'll never love me again now

i am managing
to see through
see between
over to the far side of my self
to the far side of what constitutes
my self

i still believe in my intuition
it is my loudest voice
it gives me faith again
where previously God did

i would never hurt you so much if you hadn't hurt me so much, repeatedly and carelessly.

you selfish, self-centered, greedy, gluttonous man...wanting, wanting, wanting...at any cost......no common sense in that old body of yours...what happened to you for you to be so stupid and immature?

you are more lost than i could EVER be at your age.

enraveling ravel roving rover
raging railing failing flailing

not knowing or going
sensing for sowing
reaping and flowing

nothing
nothing
nothing
the more i say it the more it means something

but the truth is i know more about nothing than i do about something
i wish i could say otherwise

killing eyes
parrot eyes

patronize
insult

i'm traumatized by your insanity